Weird Feelings

The weird feeling of being home but of not being able to go home...
The weird feeling of wearing the same shirt you wore two days ago with the skirt you wore yesterday...
The weird feeling of having nothing to do but knowing it's up to you to do something...
The weird feeling of normalcy when you know nothing is normal...
The weird feeling of being on the verge of crying for two weeks yet never letting the tears fall...
The weird feeling of telling your friends and family you are fine and trust in Hashem at the same time you jump at the noises outside...
The weird feeling of fear every time you hear a plane fly overhead...
The weird feeling of taking cold showers because there isn't even a dude like the Machon...
The weird feeling of unsurety...
The weird feeling like there IS a higher reason for this.... right?
The weird feeling like Moshiach might REALLY be coming this time.
The weird feeling like this might be the last time to CHOOSE to learn Torah.
The weird feeling like time has finally slowed down.
The weird feeling like we are almost there.
The weird feeling like living in two worlds at the same time.
The weird feeling like I might not be in Tzfat until Moshiach tells me it's OK.
LET IT NOT BE A FEELING!!!!!
WE NEED MOSHIACH NOW!